Rollercoaster

So, on Tuesday we learned about a 16 year old who needs a home. Seth and I decided we were interested in taking a teen. I got excited about the prospect.

Then Kiddo threw a holy fit yesterday about giving up her room and sharing with Tiny. I mean, a triggered trauma losing it kind of fit. So we scrapped the idea of using what has always been Kiddo’s room for a teen. And I cried.

Then this morning Kiddo is totally coming around if we redecorate Tiny’s room to accommodate her and it would need to be totally redone. It’s set up for only one kid and a toddler at that. We’d need bunk beds with a “private” feel on top for Kiddo to have her own space. We’re negotiating what stuff of hers would go in the closet, what on new shelves, what wall art would go where. She’s really accepting the idea now that she understands she gets a say in how it would work.

Although Kiddo does keep saying things like “she’s not getting MY bed! She has to get her own!” Which is fine because we do have a spare bed frame and could swap. But OY. The things we do for this child. Also, she and Tiny can’t have matching bedding because what if they got washed and she accidentally got Tiny’s bedding?! The horror! I compromised on same bedding, different colors. And rolled my eyes directly at her.

Of course, money to redo Tiny’s room is… nonexistent. We may need to ask for some help from some friends. Since I’ve had several friends ask how they can help, I’ll set up an Amazon wish list if I can figure out how to do it and share it. I’m becoming a Luddite in my “old” age – it’s eluding me so far this morning. I’m hoping for another stimulus check, personally. That would help us more than I can say. I figure that part of things will come together somehow.

So, Monday morning we will contact the home finder again to see about meeting the teenager. And if that teen doesn’t wind up liking us, perhaps another one will. Or another older kid. It means we’d be limited to taking young single girls for the room Kiddo will be sharing once Tiny goes home but that’s ok. Medical cases are often just one kid so hopefully that will work out too.

I’m taking a lot on faith here. But then, I think a lot about foster care has to be taken on faith, and things have worked out so far.